Ok it’s time. Time to finish this thing. Awhile back I finished the rough draft of my first book, which chronicled my efforts to tackle all of the 4000 footers in New Hampshire before I turned 40. It’s taken forever for me to get back to it and do the final edit. Life interrupting me…
I Am a Terrible Mother
Ever since my wife went back to work full-time, I’ve had to step in and take on some of the more “traditional” mothering duties, and let me tell you, women might be able to do anything a man can do, but I certainly can’t do everything a woman can. Not well at least. I am…
Healing or Complaining, Write or Wrong?
When I started this blog I was hoping it was going to be about mountains and writing, and perhaps be a platform for some more creative writing pursuits that I’ve got planned, but instead the bulk of my entries so far have been about this damn nerve pain. It wasn’t supposed to be this way!…
Breaking Through The Pain
It’s finally starting to happen, I think. Yesterday was the first day that the soft muscle tissue around my spine started to hold, and rather than getting electrocuted with nerve pain all over, I just feel really sore on my insides, if that makes any sense. This is also the first day I’m not nervous…
It’s All Embarrassing, Let it Roll
I have a proposal that I think could solve a lot of the problems we have here in the United States. Now it’s well-documented that inmates are having a tough time finding jobs after their incarceration, because nobody wants to hire a convict. It’s also no secret that American children are falling behind those of…
It’s Not The Winning, But The Faith
For the last year I’ve been taking the fight directly to the nerve damage in my spine, yelling at it, screaming at it, telling it that under no circumstances is it going to beat me. I keep saying to it, myself, and sometimes God, I’m gonna win. I’m gonna win damnit! Win! I also may…
When Tomorrow Never Comes
And what happens if tomorrow never comes? If you never get your life back the way it used to be? Never get your health back. Your wealth back. Your love back. Whatever it is you lost back. What then? Can you let go of what was and accept your new reality? Some things are easier…
The Beauty of The Singular Mission
Regular life has a lot of shit going on, doesn’t it? Too much really. And having a job and paying the bills is more than enough to deal with, but trying to parent in this digital age is an added burden I didn’t anticipate when I signed up for this whole parenting thing. Trying to…
When All Vanity is Gone
I never thought myself guilty of vanity until I had my health taken away from me. Before all this drama with nerve damage, what people thought of me was not a major concern because I didn’t worry about other people’s standards, just my own. As long as I was living up to my standards, I…
Positivity Can Get Old For Everyone Else
Tick-tock. Tick-tock. Tick. Tock. Tick… Tock. The hours and days and years have dragged on. For 1356 days I’ve been living with electrifying pain in my esophagus and spine, making it impossible to eat without pain. Impossible to sleep laying down. Impossible to exercise — even walk — without spasms running up my back. And…